(First) Love Triangle

i watched as your eyes met from across the room
you joined hands
she is the sun, you the moon
this creature from another time
upon meeting my reflection
fell through the looking glass
and was lost to me forever
as much as i try i cannot muster
any hatred, anger or jealousy
at least not that i can see
as much as it hurts to see him
smile at another as he does
it brings me joy to see her smile back
i cannot help but feel her happiness
but what happens next?
as i am slowly crushed under the weight
of emotions i didn't know i was capable of feeling
will they each just be another notch
in each other's bedposts?
one more bad ex story
to tell over dinner
who is the winner of this absurd game?
the swift rabbit outran the tortise
almost as soon as the race bagan
but who really won?
at the stroke of midnight
the rabbit must leave
the tortise has already turned
back into a rock and is once again
immune to such emotions
the stone wall came close to cracking
but a well-guarded heart is difficult to find
behind such walls
in the back of my mind i knew
that i never intended to take the leap
the drawbridge will remain shut tight
for many years to come
until i find the one i've been waiting for
the one i've imagined for so long
and had given up hope of ever finding
Since no one, not even you
could possibly fit such a specific criteria
(somehow from this distance you seem to
though i'm sure if i try i could find
a thousand flaws but i'm afraid
if i do i'll leave nothing left of you
truth is a vicious thing sometimes)
the rabbit is more confident
than i imagine i could ever be
our only difference has obviously
Proven to be more important that I realised
it has defined us so quickly
if only i had been able
to show you how i felt
i'm sure the situation would be very different
i still firmly believe it was merely a matter
of who reached you first
given that she and i are exactly the same
you could have fallen through my side of the glass
all i had to do was ask
and so i waited
promising myself i would
but i took for granted her smile
her heart, her laugh, her mind
how could you not be entranced
when she asked you to dance and left me behind
sitting on the shore as always
watching the waves crash and reminding myself
that it's not worth diving in
i must confess that previously i had no desire
to even get my feet wet
but you changed that
and if i had been more sure of myself
i would have plunged in head first for you
but no coward ever won the heart of a faerie tale maiden
nor slayed any dragon, nor conquered any kingdom
and so i'll wait patiently for your doppelganger
who is to you what i am to her
while i watch you give her all the stars in heaven
and content myself with the thought
that i can keep you both
and there were no casualties
even as i watch you swim away together
even as i hear my heart breaking.

Blog 2.0

I really should write in this blog more often. So much has happened in the last few months that I don't know where to begin. i do know that i don't want to keep writing the way i have. keeping an online journal of my life is not the best way for me to record my thoughts. i'm going to be more selctive and thoughtful about what I post. i want to take more time and think more carefully about what i want to say.


the internet is something most of us can't help but take for granted, but when i stop to think about it, i find it truely amazing. i mean the internet allows us to share information instantly with people all over the world. to have our voices heard. it's a shame that the blogosphere has become so cluttered with thoughtless crap, not to mention every random thought that seems to make it's way onto facebook and twitter.


anyway, i guess my point is this is going to become a real blog. I've already changed the URL and title (more information on why later) and the layout, though i'm still looking for something better. i plan on making changes to the way i write as well as how often i post. i'm not promising a regular posting schedule or anything, but I'll write when i have something to say.


watch this space.